First, I'd like to say thank you to Melinda for giving me a ride home from my infusion treatment yesterday. It had to be one of my more pleasant rides home after treatment. She showed up exactly when she said she would and made sure I made it to my apartment okay. She's great.
Now, today's topic. I just finished watching a news report from Colorado Springs about a woman named Jennifer Bohanon who was a lupie robbery suspect that was shot and killed by police at a drug store this past Sunday. Parents told reporters that Jennifer became addicted to pain meds because of her lupus symptoms.
This is such a sad, sad story. We lupies know how much the pain can get to us, but at what point do we consider ourselves addicted to our pain medication? I worry about this constantly because my parents were addicts, and I definitely don't want to go down that road. Sometimes I'll just flat out refuse to take my pain medication just to prove to myself that I'm not an addict. Geoff gets frustrated with me when I do this, so now, I take my medication exactly as prescribed and never more often than prescribed.
I also try other things in addition to the pain meds. My first thought is never to take a pill. If it were, I'd be worried. First, I'll try warm baths, meditation, self massage, getting a massage, a funny movie, moving around, talking to a friend that's funny. If none of these work, then I go on a pain medication regimen.
I think the key is to accept that we need our pain medication, but not to be solely dependent on our pain medication. We should try not to be so desperate that we'd do anything to get the pain medication. For me, pain medication is the last resort. I don't know if this outlook will work for me forever, but it works for now.
Have a lupie day!